Finding my way.

We're back on-line!! I'm happy that things are coming together. Well..last week I went to visit my sisters in the Nashville area, at one of my Alma maters...MTSU. Amber had to be rushed to the hospital, so my mom and I went up there for Thursday through Sunday. When we left, Amber was feeling much better, which is a blessing. It was last minute but it was good to have a change of scenery. I missed Deri the whole time I was gone, but it gave me a little space to figure some things out.

The album is almost done and just like Deri mentioned in a recent post, I've been considering dance jobs and also working on promote my album at the same time. As most of you know, both music and dance are very time consuming if you want to be any good. I use to practice for hours a day on dance, but now I feel like I need to put that energy in being the best musician I can be.

The turning point for me was actually a week ago. I was getting ready for my interview at a very popular dance studio and they called me to re-schedule. Man was that a bummer because they had called me on Friday and I had to get a sitter for the babies. It was Deri's first day of work, so he couldn't do it. Our car is in the shop, so he has to leave extra early to get to work on time on the bus and train. I could have re-scheduled and but since I had to go out of town, I haven't done it yet.

I don't even know if I want to. Believe me, I'm a very good dancer but I'm feeling like its not the way I'm suppose to go. Over the past couple of years, I've made attempts to pursue dance in some capacity. The opportunity was there, just something would happen to block the process. On the other hand, pretty much every time I verbalize and pray for something music oriented...it comes to pass. It started with a music business internship ten years ago and even today...with a 90 percent finished first album.

I want to heal, I know I have the ability. In church yesterday I was in awe because one song that was sung filled the sanctuary with the holy ghost and it was a blessing. I witnessed so many people getting healed. The choir touched me as well. I was in tears like everyone else. It got me thinking...although I always saw myself helping people through dance...I can really see myself being able to touch more people through song.

So...I'm really going to have to get busy. I haven't completely given up on dance...I plan to take a class or two to help me get back in shape...but other than that...music is going to be my focus. I may help choreograph one of my music videos or someone else, but I'm going to be relying on God to show what to do in that realm.

I'm going to have to start my vocal lessons soon and I'm also going to educate myself about the music business. I've read a couple of books, but I know of a couple certificate programs that would be good for me. Networking and an opportunity to really learn the business aspects of my craft. I'm also considering doing what I need to do to become qualified to become a professor in a music/music business department for the times I'm not working on an album.

Success in entertainment requires WAY more than talent, extensive training is required. I plan on really making a business out of this. Not just because I want to but because I really feel like God gave me this talent to be able to sustain myself and my family. Up until now, I've just been getting by...now is my time to "shine" and having a family will motivate me to be the best I can be.

So Deri, I will definitely be in the healing business :) Oh yeah, I'll gladly work with children and young adults doing a dance activity, so let me know your center can use my services...Love you babe :)

Goodnight family!

"For every mountain, you brought me over, for every trial, you've seen me through...halleluah...for this I give you praise!"